One Day

I  mentioned last week  there has been some wonkiness with my sleeping and health. After having an appointment with a sleep specialist we have a plan of action! The gist of my appointment is that I most likely (as in the doctor would be surprised if I didn't) have sleep apnea and he's guessing I also have narcolepsy. We totally expected the sleep apnea, the narcolepsy was a surprise. However, after talking with him extensively about it all we see his point. I'll be doing an at-home sleep study next week for 2 nights. This will determine the sleep apnea, which the doctor figures I'll "show in spades." The idea is that being in your own bed for 2 nights a person is more relaxed, the results are probably more accurate. If this test does show sleep apnea then the office will loan me an automated  CPAP  machine to use until we can determine if narcolepsy is also a factor. In October I'll have an extensive sleep study (almost 24 hrs) at the sleep clinic. The...

With all the anxiety and sleep issues I've been having I've been turning to music a lot more than I usually do. Music has always been soothing to me. And by music I mean Christian music--hymns, contemporary songs, instrumental, etc. I love it. I always have and when things are hard I find myself turning even more to music. I have a Pandora station set to calm music and have been listening to it a lot. God speaks to me a lot through the music of others, and that includes the Bible. The book of Psalms is the Bible's hymnbook. I have found it helpful to have the Psalms open and my music going. This keeps my mind on things that matter. Helps me keep my mind from wandering to places that aren't helpful. My friend shared this song with me, and I about cried when I listened/watched it. It spoke to me in ways that I needed. I felt the artist wrote down my thoughts and words, things I've been trying to get out. I also love the visual the video gives. Watch/listen to this...

We've moved to a new state, house and job. There's clearly a lot going on. There have a been a lot of change. This move has been wonderful. We LOVE where we are, we LOVE our church, all 5 of us are making friends. God is good, and he has blessed us richly. And yet, things are not good. In the past month I have been having lots of panic attacks. On one occasion I called 911 to get to the ER to make sure everything was OK with my heart (David was away at a men's retreat...). I'm not sleeping well at night, I have very low energy, and quite frankly, I feel like I'm a hot mess. Right now we don't know what's going on. Right now we have way more questions than answers. Right now we're relying fully and totally on the Lord. Right now we're taking one day at a time. I am meeting with a sleep specialist to see if I might have sleep apnea--our family doctor seems to think this is the root cause of everything. We're praying the Lord gives the doctor ...